Today is my first day very much back on the wagon.
I didn’t get weighed yesterday because I went to Southampton for shopping and we would never have made it home in time.
Today’s food is really chaotic. I are a pack of prawns before work (just prawns on their own). At work I bought some ham and I’ve had some mash potato I brought with me with 3 laughing cow light triangles in (counting them at 4 syns which is rounded up). Tonight will be bacon. Possibly carbonara. (Made the syn free way).
So yeah. Only one meal has planning or structure. And I’m incredibly hungry all the time where I’ve been eating junk for so long so I’m feeding myself with excessive amounts of free foods.
If I’ve learned nothing from the two weeks I took off from being even remotely healthy it’s that it’s not as good as you think it is. I’m ravenous all the time. I have constant headaches. I feel lethargic and bloated. The food is nice for a while but I miss feeling good. I miss the number on the scale going down. And I miss having the energy and capacity to go to the gym and work out properly.
Time to get pro active again. Time to get a move on because I’ve still got Work to do :)
i’ve been a really bad diet blog. (i’ve also kind of let go of the diet lately too. back on it now though!!)
uni is wrapped till september now so no more excuses :)
I need a kick up the bum. I’ve let exams slow me down and be an excuse to eat badly. I mean a treat is one thing. Justifying 4 days of junk food and chocolate is NOT ok. All I needed to do was lose 3lb this week and I’d have made it to the three stone marker. That won’t happen now.
I changed my workout a little today to give something new a try. Normally I do 40 minutes a night on the cross trainer. Today I did 15. A minute and a half normal speed and then thirty seconds of flat out bust a gut speed. And repeat. I made it to ten minutes before hitting the cool down button and calling it. Lol. My legs felt the same as they do after a 40 min workout after a mere 10 minutes. I don’t know how I feel about that. I think I need to find a happy medium somewhere.
But this week has gone a bit wrong. And I’m just going to try and damage control the 4 awful days I’ve had so I’m good to go for the following week.
My birthday is in 3 months. I could be sooo close to my target by then.
i hate seeing people my age who’ve got their life together already like what the fuck